Who can you trust with a secret?

Week 12/13.

We have our nuchal scan tomorrow and assuming all's fine we'll be sharing our good news far and wide. Having said that it seems that no one can keep a secret anymore. Well, maybe not "no one" but the learning out of this experience is to trust your friends not necessarily those who you *should* be able to trust.

That may have been why I was so reluctant to share with anyone at work, but last week I shared my news with people based on job role rather than on personal relationships and I think that was the turning point. Until that point the only people I'd told at work were people who I had personal connections with and who I believed on the basis of those personal relationships would keep my secret. Last week I shared it with our leadership team, a group of people who share a role at work but not necessarily a personal connection.

A week later it seemed almost everyone in the office knew my news (but none had told me they knew). I thought about trying to find out who has a big mouth, but then I decided I didn't really care. After all, I'm almost passed the first trimester and the most danger of miscarriage. So I'll let sleeping dogs lie.

This weekend we told some of the extended family our news - they were all very excited and will make more public announcements after the scan tomorrow.

I hope it all goes well.

If it doesn't I think that there will be big arguments ahead - I think that hubby and I will have different thoughts on the next steps if we are high risk. Fortunately our age is on our side so I'm confident all will be fine.

What's more exciting is that we'll finally be able to confirm that there's only one foetus inside my belly. My grandmother was a twin, and those of my friends who enjoy seeing me squirm have been telling me that "it skips a generation". If we were to have twins we'd have to move house. I can't see how 3 kids could share a small bedroom. I don't want to move house.

What's even stranger are the changes I've already noticed in my body and the reactions of others who I share this information. I seem to have already (at 12 weeks!) lost my waist. I wore a lovely skirt last week and after dinner I had to pull it up under my boobs cause it was unbelievably tight. The top of my belly (that is above my belly button) seems to have grown already. I don't feel as though I'm big enough or ready for maternity clothes yet but when I tried some on over the weekend they made me look pregnant - at 12 weeks!

The reactions have ranged from:

"You're only 12 weeks" [obvious to me they are saying - you're just putting on weight, don't kid yourself]
"of course you are, you're 12 weeks"
"your body has done it before, so it knows what to do this time"
"really!"

Last time I didn't really feel as though I looked pregnant until I was 20 weeks (though there were certain outfits that made it more obvious). I remember one of my friends had a proper preggie belly at about 16 weeks with her 2nd, so who knows... All I know is that I can no longer wear anything with a waist. So I'm going for comfort - screw what anyone else thinks!

Scan tomorrow. Fingers crossed the news is good.